Tuesday, September 05, 2006!
HandWritten on; 12:20 AM
im so stupid.so damn careless guess what i lost my wallet/purse/pouch whatever you know that white thing yeah i lost it today at orchard cineleisure my gawd.my mother was pissed and told me she didnt want to care about me told me to settle things myself.i filed a police report (the report is kinda funny) then she msged me and asked is my ic gone too i said yes then WAH she like exploded.when i called her again she practically SCREAM HER LUNGS OUT into my poor right ear (which is already kinda deaf) this im sure meisiew can be witness to since she was right beside me on my right when it happened.and she was like freaked out that she can hear your screams over my phone that she looked stunned.and why?cos it costs a bloody freaking hundred bucks.more concerned about the money,as usual.what can i say.and when i got back i showed her that police report thing she was unbelievable.she was like saying wah now old already hor even went to the POLICE STATION then she was like reprimanding me like why the hell did i get the guts to get to a police station like its such a brave thing to do and i will never do it without her around that kinda thing.and that you know how they always say it in chinese,hard feathers now know how to fly.YEAH you know.its freaking crap can.i know its very well my freaking fault but at the very least i thought that an encouraging mother will stand by you.i mean,im already feeling so terrible worried and lost without all these necessities and oh my KEYS TOO omgg and all you did was to rub it in?i dontknow but if i were you i will like immediately bring my daughter to do all those replacements and everything so to make her life more managable.i know i deserve a lesson but im already feeling so guilty and all youre saying is making me feel even worse.thanks a lot man.you can sound strict and firm.but at least let me know you give a freaking damn.it was like this when i lost my phone too.when other mothers will scold but they will put themselves in their daughters' shoes and yeah,get the right things done.you didnt.you said i could live without a phone.which i very well cant.maybe this proves how little you know about me after all.and now im wondering how am i going to live through my days without my dear ez link card and ATM omg and i lost 20 bucks i know it isnt a LOT but well it means a lot to me and now im in huge debt cos i borrowed money from yueyang jiayuan and meisiew and AH.KILL ME.
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